what a relief.

im up for a blog tonight, or should i say morning....kkk^^ yup i can smile now, and guess what why.... u will know later!

past few days i've been so down. i spazz a bit in twitter, but sometimes in between its reality that eats me. it is all started with a letter from my cousin who is in Canada. I haven't heard from her since January (she's busy of her work, and I really do understand that) so yeah, its started there when she ask how am i doing right now, and she is just checking on me if im still alive or not kk^^ anyways, im a bit hesitant at first to reply back coz of the "thing" happened to me last Feb.19 (yes i do remember that date, some would say its memorable to them but others would say it would be some of their worst--pls. include me). ;) i replied back at her,like beating around the bush message. i didnt said anything about that "thing".. i just said that its been hard for me to cope for the few months so i haven't contacted them, and my smart cousin figured it out what im talking about. Actually i expected them to know everything, i mean my uncle is really updated with the news here in the Philippines.. so yeah... :)

after reading the replies of my dear cousin, she suggested that i would tell it to her dad, (my uncle) about everything, she did support me as expected and she said they would understand. So, earlier around 12:45AM here, we called in Canada... my mom did the intro and then after i grab the phone and burst into tears, and in our whole conversation i was just crying. i will not further elaborate on the things we talked, all i gotta say is im so blessed that i have the best and supportive family in the world. thank you Tito and Tita, for understanding and never ending support.

now, i can breathe well... i can relax and just think about the future, on what things i need to do in order to achieve whatever it is planned. I will not give up nor quit the race coz it is just starting, and i know i can reach  my destination soon with the love and support of my family and friends and ofcourse with God...

thank u Lord for everything, especially for giving me a wonderful  family and friends! love u always and forever!

xoxo,jas