To start off my blog… well tonight I just want to write… coz I just cant get to sleep thinking of something. You know thinking a lot may coz u crazy.. like I am right now.. its been bothering me lately… Oh, I just wish I can write it here… but its too personal. Its been really hard lately for me and my famly… Oh I wish I can make things right. :/
Right now I should start thinking of my future.. like work, volunteering and stuffs… Im no kid anymore,I must act like one… I should and I must. I just realize I need to grow up, not living in my so called Neverland. I feel that Im still stuck there, still enjoying and waiting for nothing ---a happy go lucky “little” girl… Ugh.. I think I need to wake up to this dream and face the reality that haunts me… I feel ashamed of myself… :’(((Lately I’ve been trying to make things good, but then suddenly another new problem and issues arise again… How can I stop this? When almost this good stuff put into its good place, here comes another one… It turns out it will never end… im a bit scared and at the same time frightened. I hope it will not lead to another problem and again and then again… I hope it will not get worst, that’s im hoping for... :)
For now, I’ll just pray that this thing will be over and we will gonna survive this. Whatever we do, or I do I’ll be strong for my family, we will support each other no matter what… We will always be there for each other.. J I’ll work hard and I’ll do my best to be a good daughter that they can be proud of… I love you guys…
This blog is kinda personal; even I didn’t mention anything in here… I want to share this out, but i cant.. this is my weakness...i worry a lot, and keep it by myself, but I really do hope everything will turn out to be fine soon… I really do hope so… till then.
Xoxo,jas
ps. i dunno what happen while my fonts are like this.. it is acting weird.. well.. too tired to edit.. let it be then!
