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My own little nightmares becomes real

I don’t know what to do when I first heard about it

I was in my denial as usual

But its reality now Im facing

I can’t sleep tonight that’s why im here blogging

Everytime I close my eyes it’s there, the past im thinking

I rather want to stay awake as possible as I could

In order for me to forget and to move on for a bit

But still here I am lost in the darkness of these four walls

Trying to hide the tears

Pretending to be strong on the outside

But not knowing Im totally crashed in the inside

Will this ache will end?

Im trying to figure out all by myself,that's what Im thinking

Can I survive from this fallout?

Can I be myself again as before?

Im not really sure what will I answer to those question

All I know is that Im trying my best to get up step by step as I could

With the help of my friends, yes-that’s you

And with the Love and Guidance from my family and most especially to God

xoxo,jas