little update

Heya all bloggers.... just a little hello from me... hahahha it's been awhile i havent updated this blog. Im sooo sorry.. been busy with other things... I've been handling a lot of blogs lately... urhmmmm maybe like 3 blogs and im handling 3 pages in facebook, mostly fandom stuffs... So im pretty busy a bit.. just a bit... i love keeping myself busy....coz sometimes u tend to forget things when your busy...

Anyways, im back in awhile... im using my laptop so i have time blogging... whats up with me lately.... uhrmmmm well as i said been busy with fandom stuffs... most especially NINA NESBITT stuff.. hahaha.. Yes, this girl im talking about is the next big thing.... so im spazzing like a fangirl everyday.. I open a Philippines Facebook/Twitter fanpage for her, a worldwide blog and i just send a letter to her through fanmail... obsess much right??? hahahaha.. I think its all worth it coz I think she knows me already or should I say i talk to her fans almost everyday...so yeah~!!!

Im still me... still working at the same academy,same job... nothing interesting news to share... still struggling on finding/searching for another job or so called "business".... so hard~!!

will blog soon! oh just posted 3 or 4 poems earlier.. that's what i do when i dont have classes!!! quite inspiring dont u think?? ok... got to go now~!! laters!!!

at my room (work)...... and yes..SNSD poster!

till then....

xoxo,jas

ps. oh, im watching Love Rain, Korean drama starring SNSD Yoona!!! its really good!!! you guys should watch it! hehehe

Final Goodbye

this poem is based on my friend's relationship :) got inspired writing a poem for it.

-Final Goodbye-

by jas 

All we have is now

So let’s make out of it

It’s hard, I know

But we can make it through

You and me, we will not let go

We always be like this

So reach my hand, we can do this

“Hold on”, I whisper to your ears

Others might start a war coz we are together

I don’t care, just don’t mind them

Important is you love me and I love you

That’s all matters

But after a year or two what happened to us?

We become strangers to each other

What happen to our “forever and always”

Are we ending our love song to a tragic one?

Help me and make it clear 

It was like yesterday our love is everlasting

Please confirm and say it right in front of me

We are not playing hide and seek here

Have courage and show yourself,

This is all what you want righ?

Face me you little coward

Please, I just want some answers

If you really want to do this, hiding yourself

Well then goodluck, Im done with you

I guess this is finally goodbye

Goodbye………….

Love So Sudden

-----Love So Sudden----

by jas

I’ve been this way since you left

I can’t sleep or eat

It seems that you are my drug that I need

In order for me to live

You’re like my soul mate and fate

Can u ever hear and feel that

Don’t be so blind and be open

I’m just here, just open your eyes wide open

One day I knock onto the door of your hear and no one dare to open

I wonder why, if I’m not mistaken I hear it’s vacant

I want to fill that up with love

Just give me the key and I’ll open it slowly

Give me the chance please, just don’t be shy

Can we give this one a try?

Let’s see what will happen

With this love so sudden

Faker

wrote this in a state of anger...finally she is out in the picture. :)

"Faker"

 by jas

You are mean by the way

Do you realize that?

C’mon you’re too cruel and selfish

You’re no difference than the others

You can be sweet and gentle others might say it

Others also might love and like you

But why is it every time I see you, you’re so fake

Are you sure you’re showing the real you?

Is it me, or it’s just my imagination you’re talking to me?

I should be dreaming you are here in front of me

I’m sorry; I can’t take this anymore,

Can I get out of this room and leave you?

You’re such a pain in the a**

You’re making me say the bad things in people

Enough now….. I’m too tired of this

Go,Leave, get out quietly!

10 Characteristics of Positive Thinking People

***This is an article i found in the net, that maybe i want to share with you guys... its about being positive in life, whatever bad things happen into our life we should learn how to think positive...  

Those who have tried to improve themselves as well as their knowledge, know very well how life is easier to live as they exercise positive thinking. But not many people know how to train themselves to let positive thinking dominate their minds. So let us first find out some characteristics of positive thinking people, then we can start to follow suit.

1. They see problems as challenges.

This is in contrast to the way some people see problems as ordeals too great to bear as to make their lives most miserable.

2. They enjoy their lives.

Positive thinking makes people light heartedly accept whatever conditions their lives are in, but it doesn’t necessarily mean they stop trying to better their lives.

3. They always open their minds to welcome ideas and suggestions.

By doing so, they have the chance to get something new that might enable the betterment of many things in life.

4. They immediately expel any negative thought as soon as it crosses their minds.

Keeping any negative thought longer may as well be waking up a sleeping tiger. It actually is indifferent but potential to bring about troubles.

5. They count their blessing.

They don’t complain about not having or getting what they want.

6. They don’t listen to gossips.

There’s no doubt that gossips are closely related to negative thoughts so positive thinkers never let themselves come into listening to aimless and meaningless talks.

7. They don’t make excuses but act straightaway.

You likely have heard how the abbreviation of NATO is jokingly said to represent: No Action Talk Only. Clearly positive thinkers are not its followers.

8. They apply positive way of speaking.

They use sentences with optimistic tone, like : “this problem will surely be solved soon” and “you are quite talented, no doubt”

9. They carry positive body language.

Namely : smiling face, steady strides, expressive gestures, convincing nods etc.

10. They care about their self image.

They take care of their good appearances, outwardly and inwardly as well.

just thinking...

Lately, I've been enjoying my work as an English tutor and still I am but its just too difficult if you have this pressure from your parents. Honestly i dont know what will gonna happen after my 3 months contract from that academy, im not sure if i'll gonna continue or not... so im just tooooooo confuse about it.
My mom wants me to work in the hospital, that means to be a volunteer nurse (no pay), so for me its ok, but i dont know why is it too hard for me to think about it. Recently too i just passed another resume to some company--still no sign.... im just tooo upset thinking about it. UGH!!!

So right now im just thinking if what will happen to me. I dont know what to do exactly. Maybe for now i will just WAIT! I think that the only thing i can do right now, wait for another opportunity to come. And come what may~!!! i still have 2 weeks to think.
-jas

in my head...

This week has been a busy week for me, not to the fact that i have a job or something its just im busy going out with friends. Alright alright, i still dont have a job yet... im looking for one actually starting this Monday... I dunno, i feel like i have no direction at all... i think of something, the here goes another thing messing into my mind and career.. no straight direction at all... I dont know what to do right now.. Last Tuesday i passed an application form in the hospital, working as a volunteer nurse, that means no salary then there's this thing with another job offering me next year (with salary) but not that related to my career, so i dunno what to choose. I want to support my parents u know... **sigh. It's been a year that i've been in the house with no job.. :(( and i need a job!
help anyone??

The above situation is the one messing into my mind right now... when i think of it, ugh........ i dunno what to do.... i forgot to blog the other things in my head... now..... sadly... life is so damn complicated ah....
i'll blog the other things next time....

till then,xoxo
jas

Game of Pretending

Stop pretending anymore
Soon you'll be busted
So prepare and brace yourself
No hiding away

Everybody lies that's for sure
But i can't take it anymore
You're lying in front of me
How can I trust you now?

You keep pushing me away
I can sense it nowadays
You're keeping some "little dirty secrets"
Just be careful in playing your own game

Soon enough I will discover the rules
and play the game with you and the "other"
So gear up 'coz the battle is just starting
in this so called, Game of Pretending

-jas

luxurious potion for this aching heart

It wouldn’t change a thing even I knew the truth

Even you’ll never be mine; we are like two different stars never collide

It’s good though because we are still friends

Unlike other people I knew –ruined because of this thing

I’m listening to this silly love song everyday

Saying how I secretly like you

Oh, well it’s too late though

Now I know, im the only one who is making and writing this love story

I have no hard feelings or anything cursing

Coz you are happy and for that Im happy too

Friends really do care and support each other

So as a good friend Im glad, even you bit a tiny piece of my heart

I know it takes time to heal this scar

Im hoping to find a luxurious potion that I can use as an antidote

Like the things I read in books,

Just a single sip, the pain and torture will all fades away

-jas

farewell.

and then again,farewell my dear bloggies... maybe it will be my last blog for this month or for the next 3 months? let just wait and see... and actually its my 70th post.. yeah!! its been awhile.. kk^^**celebrate!
the reason for my hiatus will be, ill be back going to school. isnt it fun?? hahahaha... fun indeed.
i will surrender the net for awhile, can i do that?? its hard but i will try... yeah? fighting!

but i think i will keep on coming back here to write sometimes to ease and stabilize my emotions and pressure, so maybe i will not be totally gone... hahaha...plus the comeback of f(x) is coming up,but note to self : CONTROL and FOCUS!

so to end this short blog i will share a simple quote i found in twitter: "Some of the best lessons are learned from past mistakes. The error of the past is the wisdom of the future"indeed true! follow them @ItsThingsInLife ... amazing quotes everyday about life!


so i guess, farewell my dear friends!
double peace yo!

xoxo, just me--jas ♥  
and yes, i did cut my hair! hahaha! 
like it?i love it, new look for summer~

what a relief.

im up for a blog tonight, or should i say morning....kkk^^ yup i can smile now, and guess what why.... u will know later!

past few days i've been so down. i spazz a bit in twitter, but sometimes in between its reality that eats me. it is all started with a letter from my cousin who is in Canada. I haven't heard from her since January (she's busy of her work, and I really do understand that) so yeah, its started there when she ask how am i doing right now, and she is just checking on me if im still alive or not kk^^ anyways, im a bit hesitant at first to reply back coz of the "thing" happened to me last Feb.19 (yes i do remember that date, some would say its memorable to them but others would say it would be some of their worst--pls. include me). ;) i replied back at her,like beating around the bush message. i didnt said anything about that "thing".. i just said that its been hard for me to cope for the few months so i haven't contacted them, and my smart cousin figured it out what im talking about. Actually i expected them to know everything, i mean my uncle is really updated with the news here in the Philippines.. so yeah... :)

after reading the replies of my dear cousin, she suggested that i would tell it to her dad, (my uncle) about everything, she did support me as expected and she said they would understand. So, earlier around 12:45AM here, we called in Canada... my mom did the intro and then after i grab the phone and burst into tears, and in our whole conversation i was just crying. i will not further elaborate on the things we talked, all i gotta say is im so blessed that i have the best and supportive family in the world. thank you Tito and Tita, for understanding and never ending support.

now, i can breathe well... i can relax and just think about the future, on what things i need to do in order to achieve whatever it is planned. I will not give up nor quit the race coz it is just starting, and i know i can reach  my destination soon with the love and support of my family and friends and ofcourse with God...

thank u Lord for everything, especially for giving me a wonderful  family and friends! love u always and forever!

xoxo,jas

confessions and your lies, and now i would say goodbye~

dont ever think that you're the only one who is hurting,coz i do too and i do hope you can feel that
dont be too selfish thinking only about yourself coz it hurts a lot when i didnt hear a single word from you
"im ok" that's the only words i want to hear, but every time you said that it seems its a lie i can hear

im tired of waiting, stalking and checking if you're still alive
why you're so damn clueless of what i am feeling for you
i hope you would realize someday, any day or today
that i really do care for you more than just what we build as friends

i would say goodbye to this lonely heart now, coz its painful to think that u would only leave it as it is
i will just put it on a shelf,wherein i can lock it temporarily and maybe throw or hide the keys
and whoever would bother look for it or find it, will it be you or others --well let just wait and see
as for now i would say goodbye and goodnight to this broken heart

--jas

keep it private

i feel so lonely tonight
it seems my heart is missing someone
someone whom i truly care
someone who is close to my heart

maybe im the only one feeling this
because i dont have the guts to tell it to you
so i will just keep it private
until im ready to spill my own little secret

its not over yet for me
since i heard you still dont have a girlfriend
im crossing my fingers right now
hoping you to be mine somehow

--jas

just me

I saw you look at her every now and then
I admit that Im a bit jealous of her
She's beautiful and kind
She's the girl every guy would want

I can't be like her if that's what you want

Im just me, beautiful me

Talented and artistic me

Just simple me

But it's not too late, I guess
I will just be here, waiting
Open your eyes and don't be blind
Im here, just me

--jas

and i pray~

Time to blog again… I know Ive been blogging a lot lately…blogging a lot of myself like my favorite author, books, music but this time it will be different… Let’s just say, I’ll be blogging in general form maybe like about life and stuffs… J so Im warning you already  if u don’t want to read  this cheesy blog of mine, u better stop here, it’s fine.. hahaha~ ps. sorry for the late post!

Life as we know it is precious. We are the holder of our own action and doings and no one else, but what will you do when along the way your life will be taken away from u in just a snap? Are you prepared? Are you ready? These are the common question I always encountered. We all know our life here on earth is just borrowed from God. Sometimes we take life as for granted (maybe I can include myself to that situation). It’s sad but it’s true and it’s reality we are talking about here.*sigh

My point is we must start to appreciate the things that are happening into our life, even little things. We tend to forget it coz we are blinded with a lot of our vices and stuffs, for one I would admit it again. So it all depends on us, to control and balance it.  We also tend to remember  the mistakes and negative stuffs we had committed before which is good if when we use it as a guide for our better tomorrow, but if we get stuck to that simple mistake and just take it for granted we will never succeed. 

Ok, as u can see maybe ur wondering why im writing this kinda stuffs, it is because I feel bad about what I am hearing and watching in the television, internet and in radios, not to mention the crimes and crisis we are suffering right now. But earlier I was been informed by a friend of mine that one of her friend died ,actually I didn’t know what the cause of it at first not after I saw it in the news that it was a car accident. Whoah, I was reading the article and I got teary eyes knowing that they are still studying and younger than me. They still have their dreams waiting. It’s sad that in just a blink of it, it was all taken away from them. And that’s the time I opened my eyes to reality and life. I took my life for granted somehow. So that’s why I feel a bit guilty. Sometimes, I feel bad when something is wrong, and suddenly conclude I hate my life and sometimes wish to die because of it. But I am not aware that there are people in this world who have problems worst than me. I never ever think about that not until now. So somehow this incident is somewhat a mind opener to me, that we should appreciate life whatever it is planned and make the most out of it.

After an hour or two, I saw in Twitter the news about Japan being hit by an earthquake and tsunami.  It got me worried, but I still continue surfing and lurking in the net. Suddenly a news flash appeared on the tv, a footage of the earthquake which ranges 8.9 magnitude and live video of the tsunami happening right now to them. Watching the video it gives me goose bumps, and I can’t believe that it is happening to the world right now. I mean it seems that im watching a movie of a new 2012 ver. or something worst, I can still picture it out on my mind. It’s scary and im totally frightened… Indeed, you cannot stop the forces of nature when it attacks you. L sad case.

Events and Incidents happening into our life have reasons… I guess, there are a lot of reasons why is it happening to us. Testing us, teaching us to be strong and keeping us united as one. In a state calamity such as this, people gather together to help one another and that is truly a remarkable mark of Unity. Let just not lose our faith on Him. This is the time to hold on each others hands, setting aside our differences and accepting the new challenges that may arrive. Whatever race, beliefs we got,  we are brothers and sisters no matter what.

Live and cherish life as possible as we could!

Pray. Live. Love

Pray for Japan, and pray for the World!

                             xoxo,jas

ignored...

Being ignored by someone close to you without knowing the reason, hurts

Or maybe again Im being too paranoid as always

Thinking something is wrong and making it as a problem of mine

Im not sure, but that’s what Im feeling right now.

Hi or hello, that’s ok for me

Or even good morning, good afternoon or good evening

But I haven’t got news from you

Since the day you said “goodbye” and “take care” a couple of weeks ago

Please tell me what’s wrong

So that I will not think anything nonsense and stupid

Just please tell me again and I will listen

Because this girl right here is tired of guessing coz u left it hanging

I’ll wait and I want you to tell you that

Coz that's what friends are for, right?

Friends do tell

Even if it hurts

-jas-

Get Up!

Actually Im not sure what to put or type on the title portion for this...since i just had my "downfall" slash (/) "depression" slash (/) "denial" several days ago and day by day I am thinking when will i blog again...will i ever blog again how "wicked" my life is? or will it still be wicked? hahaha.. OFCOURSE!!! i think its part of life, sometimes you stumble along the road of life and you should wipe whatever tears or blood (don't take it literally) u may have....Yes, it will leave scars but then it will heal soon enough. It takes time. For now I am so grateful for the support and love of my family and friends. They are like the best people in the world. And also i will not forget to thank the Lord for giving me those amazing people... Actually I never ever asked God or question Him about the results, maybe He have a reason and plans for me.. So i keep on holding to Him no matter what happens... A friend of mine post a quote, "if u cant touch His hands or reach His hands, touch/reach His HEART!" so i keep on reaching for it...

As for now, im still on my recovery phase.. Sometimes i still do think about it since its still visible in fb and i cant ignore hearing from my friends talking about it, but I'm happy for them too... I feel sorry I wasn't able to congratulate them on  that day but i think they will understand... I'm so proud of them.. Maybe for me, its not my time yet!So i keep on waiting and keep on fighting~ Aja! I'll work hard.

And for those people i did disappoint.. im sorry..I will try my best next time... just pls dont lose hope on me. I believe everyone deserve a second chance...But again Im sorry...


So i guess i said it... i can start fresh.. and let just take it as a lesson... And hopefully it will help me mold into a better,mature person...

Again thanks always from the bottom of my heart...

xoxo,jas

Fave lines:

ps.i think almost the lyrics is my fave~

Everybody's got that time in their life
When everything hurts and nothing's right
But you gotta walk on,yeah you gotta walk on.

Everybody's got a piece of their heart
That's been stepped on and torn apart,
But you gotta be strong,Yeah, you gotta walk on. 

"Everybody's got that one regret no matter how they try, they can't forget,

But you gotta move on,yeah, you gotta move on.
Everybody's got someone they've lost,
And they can't believe they're really gone
But you gotta live on, yeah, you gotta live on"

untitled...........

My own little nightmares becomes real

I don’t know what to do when I first heard about it

I was in my denial as usual

But its reality now Im facing

I can’t sleep tonight that’s why im here blogging

Everytime I close my eyes it’s there, the past im thinking

I rather want to stay awake as possible as I could

In order for me to forget and to move on for a bit

But still here I am lost in the darkness of these four walls

Trying to hide the tears

Pretending to be strong on the outside

But not knowing Im totally crashed in the inside

Will this ache will end?

Im trying to figure out all by myself,that's what Im thinking

Can I survive from this fallout?

Can I be myself again as before?

Im not really sure what will I answer to those question

All I know is that Im trying my best to get up step by step as I could

With the help of my friends, yes-that’s you

And with the Love and Guidance from my family and most especially to God

xoxo,jas